My dear gorgeous girl,
you’re under my skin — all that’s really missing is the x-rated dreams I should be having about you. But no matter how hard I look, it’s not there.
I love you in all the ways that matter,
and even though I want to
there’s so much love
but no desire.
I sometimes fear my feelings could crack the sun, but the complete absence of lust, when there’s never been so much trust, is downright harrowing, not to mention confusing.
How can you make my heart tremble when your luscious lips leave me cold?
My body recoils from your soft beauty, I want masculinity and I need rough.
You breathe, I breathe you in. It’s intense, it’s everything…but sin.
I wish I could just
spark the flames
but I’m unable to change
how I was made,
not that I’ve ever wanted to… not until now, not until you.
It’s still a love story, right? You’re just not gonna be my beautiful ending.