Round-up

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Life has been crazy busy, there seriously aren’t enough hours in the day.

Master’s degree update: we had to choose a primary genre out of: Fiction, Poetry, Creative Non-Fiction and Script. I chose Poetry, going against my instinct, and sure enough it quickly turned out to be a mistake. I locked horns with my tutor pretty much straight away: I think “conflicting personalities” is the best way to put it. I felt very uncomfortable within my tutor group and decided after a week that my initial feelings had been right – poetry isn’t where my strength lies as a writer and it’s not what I want to concentrate on.

Cue a lot of back and forth while I asked to be switched to a different writing genre: I was told it was too late, etc…so I had to make a pretty good case that it was in everybody’s interest for this to happen. Fortunately, they saw sense and I’m now happily settled in the Creative Non Fiction group – my new tutor is fantastic, very inspiring, as are the new students I’m working with.

Creative Non Fiction is something that really suits me, blending my background in journalism with my thirst for writing as eloquently as I can. I’m well aware that my better-written posts on this blog are the ones depicting real events and actual moments of my life. I’m not sure how I feel about the fact I’m at my best as a writer when talking about my own life – I’m an introvert and like to keep things private so it’s galling to think that my best writing is done while revealing much about myself.
My secondary genre is Fiction which is something I’m keen to work on because, as I’ve just said, I’m not at all a natural when it comes to “making up stories.”

Meanwhile, some people are still coming on my blog to try to unsettle me. It seems those people are the narcissist’s friends, and they apparently have nothing better to do with their lives than come on here every couple of days to rate my posts down. Last Friday, one of them went through about 18 posts to give them a one star rating. Whoever is doing it (apparently there’s more than one person) has been rating down the same posts over and over again till I ended up close to a one star rating overall out of I don’t know how many votes.

I let it happen for weeks now, thinking they’d get tired of it (they didn’t) but last Friday I suddenly remembered (duh!) that I don’t have to keep ratings on the blog, so I got rid of them. Obviously that upset the freaks so they decided to rate down the comments instead – thumb down for everyone who commented on “Wearing Your Words” – how very sad!

I don’t mean to be funny but those people don’t know me, and I don’t know them. That they should get upset at some of my posts written about the narcissist is fair enough, but why keep rating down everything else which has nothing to do with him?
It just makes no sense. How much of a nonentity can you be that you would choose to do battle for somebody else? Especially in such a petty, pathetic way. It’s text-book narcissism, of course: narcissists always have an adoring crowd which will stupidly attack and do the dirty work for them.

So I’m talking to you now, whoever you are: get a life! Don’t fight somebody else’s battle for them, but if you do, do it properly! Go big! Try harder than just thumbing down comments or rating posts down. If you really are intent on annoying me through this blog, do it IN YOUR NAME! Don’t hide behind the computer or phone screen, anonymously, like cowards. By all means, come on my blog: you will most probably learn a few things, educate yourself, expand your vocabulary…etc…but ask yourself why you should feel the need to act in such a petty way when you have NO idea of what happened between me and the narcissist, when you don’t even know me. Just GET A LIFE! Live for yourself: if you’re going to act like cowards, do it for yourself, not for him – you’re just admitting you’re nobodies here, do you not realise that?! How can you not?!

I personally wouldn’t dream of fighting somebody else’s battles for them, but if I did, if it was WORTH IT, I would do it properly, going down in flames for them, and I would do it in my own name, loud and proud!
You guys are just a bunch of whipped pussies – grow some balls!

Phew, I feel better now. I’ve had so little sleep for the last week that I just don’t have the patience for losers, not that I have much patience for them at any given time!

Talking of no sleep, I stayed up to watch the Debate on Sunday and I, along with the rest of the world, was witness to the absolute joke that American politics have become.
Hillary, as corrupt, dishonest and unconvincing as she is, was made to look half-way acceptable by psychopath Trump โ€” quite a feat.
He stood on that stage, not answering a single question, rambling on and on, sniffing constantly, acting like a petulant child: “why don’t you interrupt her? Not fair, not fair.”
HOW has this man made it that far? I. Cannot. Understand. It.
I am terrified that this so easily enraged (and deranged) narcissist should ever get anywhere near nuclear buttons – TERRIFIED.

I shall now make myself a cup of green tea, dip into my stash of dark chocolate and take a look around WordPress. Then it’s back to work and more studying later. Friday I’m in London all day on a photo shoot acting as agent for a very special someone who is as gifted brain-wise as he is in the looks department – high fashion for an exclusive magazine, I’m going to love investigating behind the scenes. And I might just have a date Saturday night (#RoseGold)
Life is incredibly busy but it’s also really grand right now.

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61 thoughts on “Round-up

  1. Hi Nathalie! I’m so glad you were able to straighten out your courses to take the one you were most interested in. I’m not sure I understand what’s happening with the trolls on your blog, are you not able to block them from commenting, etc? I am sure there is a setting for that somewhere within the comments menu. At any rate, I’m so sorry that this nonsense is happening to you. As for the American election, it is mind blowing that after the latest revelations about Trump’s view of women via the Access Hollywood tape, that ALL his supporters haven’t fled. The terrifying part? What that says about the people of this country…. I shudder to think.

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    1. Hi Meg! Thank you, and no, I can’t block people from commenting but those people are not even doing that, they’re just rating posts down by repeatedly giving them 1 star, well they were until I got rid of the ratings.
      As for the elections, I KNEW that tape wasn’t going to do the trick, why should it when he’s consistently done and said terrible things and none of it has stopped him. I keep saying it, but only in America! In Europe, any candidate that stated they “wanted to punch someone in the face”…or that their opponent should “be killed” and now what he said about women…that candidate in Europe would have been forced to withdraw long before now. It is very, very scary.

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  2. Hi Purpleanais,

    Studying makes it always seem like there is never enough time or hours in the day. By the way, congratulations for pursuing an area of study that I found very difficult at times. Fortunately, it was not my major course of study. I think you absolutely did the right thing by forcing the issue by choosing what is best for you and what would be your focus in your future writing.

    I too, am very forthright and speak my mind, truthful, and I would never dream of not using my real name when writing. I too have a French background, French speaking Canadian French grandparents and father from Quebec. And, anyone who cannot see that Trump is a pathological liar and narcissist is not being honest with themselves. Trump is truly terrifying because he is far worse than that, he is a dangerous man who is mentally unstable.

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    1. Hello!
      Oh dear, I hope I don’t find it as difficult as you did. I’m a qualified journalist so I have some training but journalism is a very specific type of writing so the Masters is still a bit of a scary beast for me…scary but exciting ๐Ÿ™‚
      I love how you described yourself: “very forthright…speaking your mind and truthful” – that could easily be me ๐Ÿ˜‰
      And you’ve got a French background too! It seems we have quite a lot in common ๐Ÿ™‚
      I totally agree regarding Trump, I believe he *is* a very dangerous man hence why he must be stopped at all costs. And if that means Hillary as POTUS, so be it.

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      1. Hello Purpleanais,
        Oh, I think you already are a great writer and I don’t believe you will have an problems at all. And, yes, we do have a lot in common. In fact, we are very much a like, with the exception that I would be a terrible journalist, although I have written for medical journals. I love to write speculative fiction: magical, paranormal, and science fiction writing, mostly. My third novel that I am currently writing is titled: InHabited. Karen DeMers Dowdall (K. D. Dowdall is my writing name – shorter for book covers ๐Ÿ™‚ )

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      2. Hi Karen!
        Thank you for the kind words ๐Ÿ™‚
        There’s no way to know you would be a terrible journalist unless you tried your hand at it ๐Ÿ™‚
        I admire your imagination, I’m not very good when it comes to fiction. Well done on already being on your third book, I’ve only got one under my belt and it has not been published yet.
        Do have a lovely day ๐Ÿ™‚
        Nathalie

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      3. Hello Purpleanais,

        Thank you for the kind comments, greatly appreciated. Being a writer, whether fiction or non-fiction is not easy in any regard. However, I think you would be successful in almost any endeavor you wanted because your have that drive to do so. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  3. Sorry you’ve fools pestering you on here, and I’m sorry you must endure the feces bag known as Donald Trump. What an idjit. Good thing is he’s splitting apart the Republican Party. That makes me grin ear to ear. They’re now reaping what their rhetoric has spawned over decades: a meglomaniacal, uneducated, douche bag who spews out their core beliefs uncensored for all the world to see. BTW, you can also shut off the “like” button for comments taking away that option for the children who are pestering by not playing nice with it. Good luck with school!

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    1. Well, you’ve summed him up pretty well, and yes it is a good thing he’s splitting apart the Republican Party – you are so right that they are reaping what they did sow, the swines!
      Thank you, it occurred to me yesterday that I could shut off the like button for comments although I haven’t bothered yet.

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  4. Sounds like you’re busy and happy. Except for silly people being petty. But I’m sure you’re not letting that get you down because you’re so much more amazing!

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    1. Thank you, Vic. No, I’m not really letting it get me down, it just annoys me that people should take the time to try and disparage my work when I’ve written on some important subjects lately, like the “rape culture” issue and so on. But let losers be losers, whatever.
      Thank you, lovely girl – have an amazing day ๐Ÿ˜Š ๐Ÿ’œ

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  5. it’s great to hear that you are moving in the direction that you want to go
    As far as these insignificant pieces of humanity bordering on the bridge of ignorance who the f… needs them
    jealousy is the root of all evil
    And Orange head is living in an alternative universe
    And Hillary is running around with her broom trying to sweep up Humpty pieces
    The Sheldon Perspective

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  6. It really is sad that anyone would be doing this to you, Nathalie. I would only insert myself in a conflict if it became physical against my friend. Other than that, the only support I would offer is friendship. Don’t l et them get to you. Yes, American politics are an embarassment these days. Both unworthy of the office of President. If I’m a male voter, I’m embarassed by the boorish behavior of a rich frat boy, if I’m a woman, I’m saddened that the historical signifcance of the first female president would be bestowed on someone so frighteniingly unworthy. All in all, the sadness of this post was redeemed by a beautiful photo. Off to find a book to read! Have a great day, Nathalie!

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    1. Rob, you are a confident, intelligent man, hence why you can’t understand these people. How could you? I can’t either.
      As for US politics, it is a dire time indeed. Only time will tell how this is all going to turn out. Not well, in any case.
      Thank you for the lovely compliment, I hope you’ve had a great weekend ๐Ÿ’œ

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  7. Nathalie, this makes me SO ANGRY because just like them telling you what you should and shouldn’t do and they don’t even KNOW you, I feel that rage in wanting to grab them by the neck and explain to them why they are STUPID FUCKS and not being able to do so. I firmly believe if you are a TRUTH TELLER in this world as you are, then envious, judging, shallow people will always want their ten cents. I have experienced this and most of the honest people I have met have too. So this sadly is a sign you are doing something RIGHT in this LYING DISHONEST world. People always seek to destroy light because THEY ARE NOT LIGHT and as for decrying someone for being honest about narcissism which is RAMPANT well all I’d say to that is WAKE UP because we all know it exists and what are we supposed to do? Lie down and take it? NO FUCKING WAY sister and that is why (one reason why) I admire you.
    BTW I agree I think you’re superb at creative-non-fiction you get people to THINK and FEEL simultaneously that is not an easy balance btw and you are very good at it. So agreed on that.
    Don’t let ANYONE stop you, you are on the right path and in time you will see all their BULLSHIT was because they simply envied you your lightness.

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    1. Candice, I do love you! You are the fighter and truth-teller that we all need in our lives. You are right that when people speak their minds and value HONESTY, they are usually made to pay the price. In this shitty world where the liars make it to the top far too often, how can people like us not come under fire?
      But we will not stop because we can’t be anything else than what we are and damn the stupid fucks.

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      1. You said it. they are made to pay the price. So true. The liers are almost admired that is what gets me the most! But we can’t stop we are what we are. I like you for WHO you are

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  8. PS: There was a guy, we both know him, on WP who started off being a really good friend and then he went all distant. At first I thought it was because I’d said something wrong, but it wasn’t and it was weird to go from being pretty good friends on WP to basically being ignored. I tried to pretend that it wasn’t happening but it was and if I asked them they would deny it and say ‘everything is fine’ when clearly they kinda passive-aggressive hate me. I came to see it had to be envy. I find it hard to imagine anyone envious ever of me but what else explains why someone turns on someone else? If not envy? If you truly aren’t the detestable person they try to convince you that you are? Anyway so I know that feeling somewhat it seems to happen when you are unafraid to BE YOURSELF some people just cannot handle it. But don’t EVER let that stop you.

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    1. I’ve been trying to work out who this person could be. I must admit to coming up with a total blank.
      Anyway, I can well imagine people would be envious because you are an INCREDIBLY talented writer with a blazing personality. You don’t take any bullshit, you speak the TRUTH.
      Only anyone who is envious is just a moron because the rest of us know how FEW people like you there are out there and we treasure the fact that you exist at all. Only people filled with darkness can be envious of the lights of this world. Fuck them ALL.

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      1. See those words you just wrote? Put Dear Nathalie at the front of them and read them next time someone gives you shit, because they’re equally TRUE my sister

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  9. On a humorous level … I love that picture of you MASSIVE EYES and it made me think of a funny article I read, on why French women seem to always get it right. Basically in essence, they don’t feel as American women do, the need to be perfect and have tailored suits, combed hair, clean nails, blah blah. Half of the appeal is that they are natural beauties. I agree. I grew up obviously with only French women to model myself by, though without a mom I suppose I didn’t get the usual dose of influence, and I liked how they could be so beautiful without needing to primp and over-do it. Then moving here I noticed how a woman who is considered beautiful over her twenties is usually so over-blown and it isn’t attractive at all because it seems really artificial and laquored. So my friend, you are a good role model for our country, never change, just be yourself.

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    1. Yeah, totally agree. French women don’t try so hard. I’ve never been a fan of that American look with the hair styled wishing an inch of its life and the overly girly look. Plus, so much ridiculous plastic surgery over there. French women tend to be more willing to accept their age, which I like. I really do think it’s a question of class though, as in: French women seem to naturally have style and be tasteful without trying really hard. People would say I’m biased but I really don’t think I am.

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  10. When I read the title in my email, I thought this post was going to be about weed control, I guess it is to some degree. Trolls are pests and weak (weedy), hopefully, they’ll get bored and disappear.

    As for your masters and not being great at fiction, firstly, you’ll have no problem whatsoever. Secondly maybe do a post asking for a quick outline or premise for a story, maybe give it a word count limit and play around with the suggestions to get your creative juices flowing? You could give it a genre or ask for a few key things to be brought into the mix, something like that.

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    1. Thank you for the show of confidence, it’s nice that somebody has faith in my abilities ๐Ÿ˜‰ lol
      Seriously though, thank you for your suggestion. I might very well ask for help on the blog when the time comes, we are not tackling fiction until later on in the year.
      Thanks so much for taking the time to read and your kind words and help. I do hope you’re okay, are you excited about TWD coming back? ๐Ÿ˜‰

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  11. One-star ratings? What? Certains n’ont vraiment rien ร  foutre. (Pardon my French.)
    Now, Creative Non-fiction? Sounds like a contradiction. (Un sourcil relevรฉ)
    But an interesting contradiction. Hope your date went well. A +

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    1. Oh, et bien je viens de trouver รงa dans mon spam. Il y a des fois oรน WordPress est exaspรฉrant. Oui, il y a en effet des gens qui n’ont rien ร  foutre. Du tout. Les malheureux!
      Creative non fiction c’est tout simplement รฉcrire du “vrai” mais joliment, le contraire du journalisme quoi.
      Bon mardi(?) a +

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      1. Ok. Merci de la prรฉcision. Je suppose que comme le Bourgeois gentilhomme j’ai toujours รฉcrit du creative non-fiction sans le savoir. ๐Ÿ™‚ En tout cas sans “marteler”, qui semble le seul verbe utilisรฉ par les journalistes franรงais! ๐Ÿ˜‰ Bon ouiquande.

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  12. That’s the problem with narcissists, yeah? They surround themselves with sheep who will do their bidding and fight their battles. And heaven help the person who learns and gets out of their circle.

    Trump is just another narcissist. It sickens me that he’s made it this far, and that people I know, who have daughters and wives and mothers, would condone his behavior.

    Oh well. You are smart and gorgeous and kind and far better than the petty behavior of a few. Good luck with your classes!

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