I am so lucky to have a bunch of (carefully selected) great friends. They are all amazing people and I love them. Unfortunately, some of them cannot accept the way I’ve been treated by a certain someone and they can’t help but look for proofs that he was/is a maniac and relay the informations to me.
I don’t want to hear about that person anymore, I want to forget his existence entirely. I have told my friends all this, I’ve explained it in details and yet…they “behave” for a week and then come back to me with “the latest” because they are so outraged and disgusted by his current behaviour.
I don’t think they actually realise that the fact they’re not letting go of “this” is just making me feel angry again at the way I was used and abused.
I don’t want this incessant stream of appalling info. I already know he is a dangerous narcissist, that he sows pain and despair wherever he goes – I KNOW! Now I want to forget it!
I am at a point in my life when I can honestly say I have never been so happy. Everything is aligning perfectly, all different areas of my life equally nurtured and thriving.
For the last 3 years, I’ve had this cloud of negative energy hovering in the background: highs and lows, a never ending roller coaster of emotions provided by someone who is so unbalanced and frankly fucked up that he almost took me down with him. It’s finally over. I do not want it racked up every 10 days.
Yes, he is as unstable as ever: right now living for the intense high – studying, prospects and career currently going down the pan when it’s usually all that matters…and so what?! I know all this, I’ve seen it all before, it’s the same old narcissist cycle & I know how it will end…and I really don’t give a fuck. I don’t want a play-by-play of his lunatic behaviour. Yes, he was a real shit to me but no matter how it looks now, he’s going to be a real shit to someone else and there’s nothing I can do about it.
Let fools be fools, let losers be losers, and unfortunately, let narcissists be narcissists. I am happy and I have moved on, but the drama went on for so long and it is still fresh enough that anger can easily be roused if things are rubbed in my face.
Enough, guys. I really appreciate your concern and I love that you care enough to get so angry on my behalf but…it’s finished. Even right now, look beyond the appearances: I am truly happy, he’s not – he’s pretending to be, he’s deluding himself AND he’s embarrassing himself on a grand scale in the process. If that’s not enough for you, guys: think of karma, it’s a real bitch and it may bide its time but it always shows up in the end. Fact.