A whole lot of nothing


sometimes I want to be a Jean Paul Gaultier doll
a stylishly vulgar androgynous bottle
with platinum hair
and sexy stare
couture tattoos
& no taboos
dancing on a creaky barge on the Seine

then, there are times when I feel very much
like the Coco Chanel bird
tweeting in her golden cage
too exclusive to be touched
dripping with Frenchness
and a cool intellectual sexiness

what about the rock chick
and her worn leather
vertiginous heels, chunky rings
messy eyeliner
she gets her kicks
from breathing smoke in dirty bars
getting drunk on anaemic guitars

last night, I was none of those things
but a mix of Nicole Kidman and Grace Kelly
I was the icy blonde Hitchcock was so fond of
a Stepford wife lookalike
onlyβ€”one who would bite
if anyone should be taken in
and not realise I was just play-acting

remember: don’t judge a book by its cover
appearances can be very deceiving
there are many facets to my personality
today I am covered in flour and cocoa powder
channeling my beloved grandmother
making a cake while writing
a whole lot of nothing

121 thoughts on “A whole lot of nothing

  1. Ok, you’ve hit upon so many of my favorite things. I love Hitchcock and his leading ladies. Although not my favorite Hitchcock film, I love the way he filmed Grace Kelley in ‘To Catch a Thief’. Gaultier used to have such outrageous runway shows. A true showman! I would never judge a book by its cover, especially your book. Now, if you don’t mind, I’m off to gaze at your photo. 😍

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    1. Yes, but my absolute favourite Grace part was in “Rear Window” 😍
      Gaultier’s shows were always outrageous – Eurotrash at its best!
      Don’t gaze for too long, Rob! Might burn your retinas πŸ˜‚

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      1. Loved Rear Window, too. There was a film some years ago that tried to pay homage to it called “Body Double”. Not bad, but not Hitch. My retinas will be fine. Besides, I think that I owe you, since I’ve poked your eye out once or twice. πŸ˜‰

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  2. πŸ™‚ Well all I can say is you are stylish company, Kim Novak Grace Kelly Janet Leigh Tippi Hedren (love ‘Marnie’) and ALL classy blondes……….btw nice pins!

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  3. Ah, the many facets of Nathalie. All of them gorgeous. πŸ™‚ We are all many things. That is so much of the fun! (and don’t let that man near you with a wooden spoon! πŸ˜› )

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      1. J’aime te lire car comme la simplicitΓ©, tu es difficilement accessible !
        Merci pour tes jolis articles jolie Nathalie …

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      2. Ah, mais de mieux en mieux! “Comme la simplicitΓ©, tu es difficilement accessible” – j’aime Γ  croire que c’est vrai πŸ™‚
        Merci de les lire et pour les dΓ©licieux commentaires – Nathalie

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  4. The most beautiful among us are those who call us to remember them in ways that are not fleeting but lasting. The man who lies near to death thinks of that girl, it is the one he never possessed, the one who bewitched him and always, a little far off, out of grasp. In that way you are the girl most beautiful because your mind without even a consideration of your physical attributes will always be alluring to the romantically hearted man seeking the girl who can be – all things. And that you are. All things. This poem understands that, the multi-faceted Nathalie who at once can shock, whilst outwitting the smartest, and laugh raw and real, before freezing everyone with her glacial beauty. Then again you’re no ice-queen there’s just too much in you for that, but you can play the parts of all those sirens and then some. On a personal note, when you tire of those INCREDIBLE SHOES you know who to pass them on to πŸ™‚ It helps to have a smoking hot figure to set those shoes off, I bet men watched their eye balls roll as marbles into the gutter. Oh and I shall now call you MANON because you so remind me of her in that dress (sans the heels because of the countryside perhaps, they can wait by the bed) which is a huge compliment as Beart is a gorgeous creature, and like you, a natural brunette who really rocks the bardot blonde. Oh my friend if you weren’t so darned clever you’d be a wonderful siren and so you are, but most of all you possess a mind that keeps us guessing. One of your best poems on a personal front.

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      1. Yes, everything had to end on that because I’m so much like her in some ways and she represents “love” in my childhood…and I cherish the fact she passed on her recipes to me and none of the other grandchildren (I’m a silly bitch) because I was always her favourite. Still am as she’s still going strong.
        Without her, I wouldn’t be here at all, I wouldn’t be me either.

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    1. Omg Candice…THIS is the most incredible thing…where do I even start? You make me want to waltz and fuck knows I never think about waltzing ever! I just don’t deserve all of that but I’m taking it because when a queen gives you something you don’t ever say no unless you’re an idiot.
      The shoes…RIGHT? I’m such a shoe whore and I have the exact same pair in green also – they are Suede and I won’t even tell you the lengths I had to go to to get the red ones…they were sold out practically everywhere and I had to pull some strings as I NEEDED them so bad – I’m such a shameful and shameless person.
      Beart, well…you couldn’t possibly find a better compliment though I once again don’t deserve it. I love Manon!! Love the books, did I tell you I was a HUGE Pagnol fan?? Well, I am, I have read everything of his a hundred times and Jean de Florette and Manon des sources are my favs. The films that were made were incredible which shocked me as I am always disappointed by film adaptations but they were amazing – seen them loads of times. Such poetry in Pagnol…I actually had a crush on Daniel Auteuil after seeing the films which shows I’m twisted…I mean, Ugolin!

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  5. Like how the lot of nothing has sugessts a ton of things that make up our identities while managing to communicate the pointlessness of doing/life when you try to find its meaning.
    Sort of how all these things that mean something to us can at the same time be pointlessness.
    The last line turns the whole thing on its head, making me think that. But is not grim or anything, it still shows us how complex and beautiful life is for its own sake. Not all beautiful things are significant or have a point but they nonetheless matter.
    I hope I make sense.

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    1. You made complete sense. Thank you for reading and offering your insight. You’re right, some of the things that are meaningful to us are indeed pointless…to other people or even generally. I love that you said “how complex and beautiful life is for its own sake” – so true and profound if you think about it. Thank you once again, I really appreciate you taking the time to leave me your thoughts πŸ™‚

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  6. I love this. It cracks me up and saddens me that our societal sense of propriety tries to stifle play, imagination, and creativity. I love the image of you covered in flour and cocoa powder, channeling your grandmother. Be who you want to be. πŸ™‚

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  7. Quelle sensibilitΓ© sur cette photo, dΓ©licieuse dans tous les registres, je dois bien le dire, tu es captivante NathalieπŸ˜‰


  8. I can never judge you as you always evolve and change, which is one of the reasons I keep coming back here as it is always fascinating and surprising what you write and definitely razor sharp.

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